Month of May
May was not so good to me. If you can remember my previous post where I described my first two weeks of May, well, now I can tell that the whole of May is not very nice. Shall we call it a 'Gloomy May'? No, the term gloomy is not enough to describe how bad my month of May is. Let me illustrate here how was month of May shows.
My not so nice month is related to work. During the first half of May, I felt so tired that I would like to take a long vacation. But I can't due to some personal (and financial) reasons. Though I didn't thoroughly explain there what was the problem, I'm sure most of you can relate on what I am feeling. Inspite of this, I was still positive that on the second half, I will not be feeling the same and wishing that everything will be fine. However, that wish doesn't came true or I must have sent it to a wrong genie (?). Coz I still felt so down and worse, got so angry. I was so angry that I almost put into a decision that I might regret later. Good thing I kept on one of the best advice for all: not to make decision while angry. I know I have to be patient but to be honest, it is now running low. I know I have to be more patient even though I am angry and I am the one that is being unjustly exploited (woah! whatta phrase!), but hey, I am still human, and I also explode if my heart is overloaded with such anger. Any action will do, as most of colleagues said but it has to be the best one for me. I have thought about it more than how many times than I can remember and until now I am still on undecided mode. But I have listed several plans to do - just choosing on which is the most feasible. I am still considering the options as well as it consequences.
Now as May is over, I will definitely say "Hello June, please be good to me". I know this is just so lame like what's with 'June' (or any month) that you are requesting it to be good to you? But as for me, this is just my way of expressing my wish that hopefully, my not so good May will not extend to June.
My not so nice month is related to work. During the first half of May, I felt so tired that I would like to take a long vacation. But I can't due to some personal (and financial) reasons. Though I didn't thoroughly explain there what was the problem, I'm sure most of you can relate on what I am feeling. Inspite of this, I was still positive that on the second half, I will not be feeling the same and wishing that everything will be fine. However, that wish doesn't came true or I must have sent it to a wrong genie (?). Coz I still felt so down and worse, got so angry. I was so angry that I almost put into a decision that I might regret later. Good thing I kept on one of the best advice for all: not to make decision while angry. I know I have to be patient but to be honest, it is now running low. I know I have to be more patient even though I am angry and I am the one that is being unjustly exploited (woah! whatta phrase!), but hey, I am still human, and I also explode if my heart is overloaded with such anger. Any action will do, as most of colleagues said but it has to be the best one for me. I have thought about it more than how many times than I can remember and until now I am still on undecided mode. But I have listed several plans to do - just choosing on which is the most feasible. I am still considering the options as well as it consequences.
Now as May is over, I will definitely say "Hello June, please be good to me". I know this is just so lame like what's with 'June' (or any month) that you are requesting it to be good to you? But as for me, this is just my way of expressing my wish that hopefully, my not so good May will not extend to June.
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